The norms of life
I was born in poor family, I had poor life for many years. when i was young, we had little thing to eat. when I began to go to primary school, it means in my family there were three children in school, me and my two older brothers. We went to school in the early morning, and came back normally after 5 o’clock. we had nothing to bring for lunch, the three children always had a fight with each other for the little food.
Such kind of life continued in my middle school, high school and university time. the first time when i went to Beijing to begin my university time. we borrowed money for train ticket, and borrowed money for tuition fee, and we borrowed money for a few days for me to live in beijing. the first night when i arrived Beijing, my brother and I slept in the ground of the Beijing west station.
when I had pain, or when I felt very hungry, nobody can feel, or understand you were painful or you were hungry. Most of the time, when I had pain, or when I felt very hungry, people are laughing, and wasting food in the party or flushing the money as toilet water. To be alive in the world is my only goal in the last 30 years.
In the last 30 years, I had no reason, no time to think about other people, or to have sympathy for other people. In the mainland, there are more than 1000 million people there, even half of that suddenly disappeared, nobody really cares about that, or feels sad about that.
In the recent 2 or 3 years, I begin to care about other people, I worry about the people who are in the sufferings. and begin to think about the reason of that.